I am outwardly straight and have fucked many many females but I'm secretly gay on the side with a sissy kink. I've been fucked 5 times that I can remember only once in a bed missionary position which was awesome he gave me a love bite on the neck. I fantasise about meeting a top for private sessions so I can service him. I met a black guy once who was real rough with me then throat fucked me I asked him if I could be his bitch we swapped numbers and he called me but I bottled out..